Saturday in the city

What happens when an energy healer goes in the center of town on a Saturday

I would like to share with you what I see. Many people are curious what it is like being me. I usually do not share a lot because my experience is not always the same and never easy to explain in words. But yesterday when I had just finished work, this was my experience.

I walk towards the city centre. On this street I do not encounter people, just a few cars. I pass from a bar. A man is sitting outside waiting for his girlfriend or date. He is writing her a text message that probably reads something like: “Ok, no problem” or “See you in a bit” but he is furious and his energy is saying something more like “Stupid, mean bitch!”. In the 3D world you just see a guy quietly sitting at a bar typing into his phone.

I pass a middle aged couple. They have clearly been married for quite some years and might have grown a family together. She is beautiful and he is tall. She is more intelligent than he is but she loves and respects him for his other qualities. He is telling her something and she is showing interest and asking questions to please him and assist his train of thought . But she already knows where this is going and actually knows what he is going to say and she is BORED.

A woman passes, she just bought shoes. Those shoes were supposed to be her “prize”. She has been looking forward to this shopping outing because she was going to “treat herself” to new shoes. She did find shoes but she isn’t feeling the joy and satisfaction that she was looking forward to. She has a habit to limit herself and to save money where possible. That way of being, kind of blocked the experience she was aiming for, but she is not aware of this.

I now approach the pedestrian area of the city and so far I have actually been quite unaware of all the things I have been noticing, it was like music in the background. A steady awareness of things behind my own train of thoughts that was focussing on my mission of changing a birthday gift that was the wrong size. I registered them and could identify them looking back in retrospect but was not paying specific attention to these observations at the time.  

 As soon as I step into the masses, it kind of overwhelms me. Like being in a store and the music suddenly been turned up to a disco level volume. Unpleasant. Simultaneously I become aware of the following people:

 A grown up women is shopping with her mother. They walk close together and her mother says something. In the 3D world she hardly acknowledges her mother’s comment and makes a vague head shrug, in the 4D world she growls and gnarls at her mother like an angry watch dog. 

 In the 3D world a man is looking at a woman that is walking by in a relatively short skirt. In the 4D world he grabs her, like a child would grab a doll, screaming “mine!”.

There are many more people that make “noise” around, just that my fight flight response picked out the more aggressive ones to focus on. It is in this moment that I become aware of my expanded energy field and decide to do something about it. I shrink it and create nice golden and white light qualities and boundaries. Now I feel less disorientated.

I notice a girl, she is 3 years old and riding a moped. Her energy is completely focussed on the activity of riding the moped. She is feeling power and accomplishment for her riding the moped and is enjoying this. There is no room for other thoughts or meta thoughts or intentions, she is completely in the moment and I smile. 

 A few steps behind her follows her dad. He is in a good mood too. He is taking his child around the city and is feeling rather accomplished and happy about that himself. This is making me smile too because the child is completely unaware about her father, he is not in her consciousness in any way. He feels “together” but he is actually not. That might sound sad, but it isn’t because both individuals are in a happy place and having a good time albeit neither of them is aware of the reasons the other one is happy.

 Now some people become insecure or anxious when they find out what I can see, others simply don’t believe it and others again will start questioning me about what I see in them. Now this is not always helpful as I will explain below with the example of the shopping lady with her mother. 

 Depending on her level of self awareness it can be that she wasn’t aware of her invisible reaction towards her mother. If you would interrupt her to ask how she feels she might be only aware of a mental level on which she would say: “Oh my mom was in her usual commentary, nothing special”.

Even if you would insist, asking her if it would hurt her in any way she might respond with: “oh no, I know my mom, I am used to it.”

But coming home she might say to her husband: “I don’t know why, but shopping with my mother is always so exhausting. I come back home completely drained.”

 Whatever her mother has said has triggered a dynamic between the two of them that most probably was already created in childhood. From an outside perspective her mother’s comment might not even be hurtful in the slightest way. It just activated a habitual chain of energy reactions that can proceed without her being even slightly aware and that is completely based on memory. 

This can explain why, when I observe things in people, they might not agree with my observations at all. They have no awareness of what is happening within them on other levels. So in my job as a healer, I choose very carefully how I share my observations with my clients. I look not only to what happens in the various dimensions but I also observe how much of their conscious awareness is present on the various levels and within the various dynamics. I start talking to them from the point where their own awareness begins and encourage them to expand their awareness to include more and more of what they are.

Eventually this process leads to a becoming aware of the higher self, the part that holds and guides all other parts both “bad”and “good” and on every level and dimension. 

That is the awakening to the fifth dimension.

Copyright Maartje Kreuzen 2015